These past few weekends I have taken some time to spend with my family at home...and guess what, I am okay with that. Spending time at the feed store with our employees (that are like family) and time at home is healing for me. It refreshes me for the week to come...and it just makes my heart feel good.
I have gotten to see a couple funny movies with a friend and have had some wonderful lunches and dinners with those that I love. I have learned a lot about relationships, a lot about myself, and am finally making time for the things that I love.
Just last week I had a hopeful opportunity to get back into riding horses again. I got so excited that weekend that I cleaned my boots and chaps, pulled my riding pants out of the closet, and even got some hairnets to make sure that my hair (which is much longer now than what it used to be) went up into my helmet neatly. I couldn't wait to hear back from the farm that wanted someone to school their two mares for them; I really couldn't contain my excitement. Then...I didn't hear anything and my hopes were absolutely crushed. I followed up and they had found someone else.
Have I been disappointed? Yes. Were my hopes up more than they should have been? Probably.
But...maybe this is just God's way of telling me that it's time to stop and smell the roses. Maybe it's time for me to look around and see the beauty that surrounds me. Lately, what He has been doing in my life is truly amazing and wonderful. My heart is opening up, the smile is coming back, and the happiness is truly blooming within me.
When little things set you back...I think it is important to remember small moments like this. I know that God has a plan for me. I don't know what it is right now, but all I know is that I am waiting for His perfect plan...since discovering it myself is a lot harder than I thought it would be. So today and many more to come...I am just going to stop and smell the roses.