July 31, 2013

if I could turn back time.

Thinking is never good for me.  Well...mulling over things is never good for me. Like anybody else, I need to think for work, for school, and for major decisions in my life, but over-thinking causes more problems than I can handle on my own. Anyways, sometimes it is good to look back and think...it is truly the only way we can see growth in ourselves.  

If I could turn back time, I would have continued riding horses.  I was super excited earlier this week about a possibility to get back into riding and it really reminded me how much I love being around horses. I wish I would have joined the collegiate riding team at North Carolina State University.  It would have been a lot of fun and a relatively cheap way to stay in the horse industry.

If I could turn back time, I would have taken a lot more pictures. My mom did a pretty good job of taking pictures growing up, but there are some moments that I wish I had more of. I have so many good memories of showing livestock as a kid at the local county 4-H fair, but I barely have any  pictures of the people I showed with.  That part of my life was a blast.

If I could turn back time, I would have taken more time making myself look "cute".  I know trends come and go, but for heaven's sake...I was looking rough!  I was definitely that teenage girl who had no sense of style and was just an all around tom-boy. (I have to be careful because sometimes the tomboy in me slips out)

If I could turn back time, I would take back the hurtful things I have said.  When upset, I tend to let things build up over time, then at some point I reach the apex and say things that hurt those that I care about.  It is something that I have been really trying to keep in check.

If I could turn back time, I wouldn't take life so seriously.  When I was younger, I was all about the agenda.  No fun.  A fun sucker is probably an accurate title to call me.  When I began teaching, my fourth period class really taught me that it is okay to have a little fun every once in a while.  Life is a little bit easier when you are having a lot of fun.

If I could turn back time, I wouldn't worry so much about the future.  Even though I have told myself time and time again that I would put my life in God's hands, many times I haven't.  This is something I still struggle with today.  God provides...He always does, and I have to remember that.  

Life throws us for some curve balls and thinking like this can be good...every once in a while!

Do you have anything you would change if you could turn back time?