January 26, 2013

enough said.

We're the red and white from State and we know we are the best.

Hands behind our backs we can take on all the rest...

GO TO HELL CAROLINA!!


Devils and Deacs stand in line...
The red and white from NC State.

GO STATE!



THIS IS OUR STATE!

Presenting the NC State Wolfpack vs. the University of North Carolina Tarholes
7:00pm at the PNC Arena.

It's time to get ready.

January 18, 2013

high five for friday and kind of some more.


1. Cutest little clutch...ever.I have been working the entire semester with this sweet sweet girl that is blind. The girl works so hard and I have really (I mean REALLY) enjoyed working with her. Her braille instructor gave me this for working so well and so diligently with her. Props to her for awesome taste.

2. Egg and Cheese Biscuit.  My ride to work is close to an hour, so, some mornings I just need a little get up and go motivation. Little Marathon gas station restaurant ladies...you are my heroes. Egg and Cheese Biscuit and coffee refill= $1.68. Can I get a whoop whoop!

3. Brand New Sharpened Pencils. No germs. No nasty fingers. FRESH. Guess what we had this week?  State Testing...it's real folks.

4.My face after trying out a new lip stain/lip gloss. Picture tones the color down a lot...but ya'll, I tried to be adventurous.  Now my lips just like they just came off the coral reef. I need a makeover...and some serious fashion help.

5. We are on a two hour delay for the threat of snow. You heard me...no snow on the ground and the ground is too warm for it to stick.  Today, is my last day. We were supposed to get out at 1:00pm...now it's 3:00pm. WHYYYYYYYYY?!?!?


Today is my last day as a classroom teacher...for now at least...and it is definitely bittersweet.

January 13, 2013

fearful.

I walked into church today, opened the bulletin, and saw the sermon title "How to handle fearful times."
Sermon notes from today. I am in love with this church. 

Wow. Just when you think God isn't listening...He is...and is prepared to heal you.

FEAR: a sudden attack of anxiety.

I worry...constantly.  Most days it eats away at my heart and soul...it consumes my body and eats away at every ounce of my being. Why?

I worry about everything. Life. Careers. Relationships. Change. Money. Failure. Success. It doesn't even have to be my own fear. I worry about everyone else's too...the girl in my class, the person sitting on a bench in town, and the people that I love so dearly. 

Reverend Chris said that we all are fearful...we just have different fears. As I sat there during church I felt this overwhelming feeling. Fear. Once again it was rising up in me just as it does every day. What's the answer?

God brings the SOLUTION to our fears.  The Bible was written during fearful times.  

1. God helps us to handle our fears when we PRAY.
Think of something that is bothering you right now.  What is it?  I know that I am anxious of what is going to happen when I move.  How are things going to change?  How am I going to handle it?

We become PARALYZED by our fears.  I know I do...on a daily basis.  I get so sucked in thinking about them that my heart just hurts from thinking about them so much.  I mull over them...I beat them until I can't beat them anymore.  

I pray to give it over to Christ...but it doesn't leave...why?  I haven't FULLY given it over to HIM.  I say I am going to let him have control but I don't...I give it over, then take it right back, like a feisty game of fetch with a dog.  

I need to offer it...lay it down at my Father's feet, just like Abraham laid Isaac at his Father's feet.  Abraham was so obedient..."Here I am," he replied. An angel of God said,  "Do not lay a hand on the boy; Do not do anything to him.  Now I know that you fear God, because you have not withheld me from your son, your only son."

David in Psalm 34 sang, "I sought the Lord and He answered me; He delivered me from all my fears."

Today...I vowed to lay my fears at my Father's feet. Today ,I will not let them encompass me anymore.Today...I am washed in the white of the Lamb.

2. We pray to Him, but we must also OBEY Him. 

Until we act on our conversation with God..nothing will happen. Paul in Acts 18 heard God in a vision, "Do not be afraid; keep on speaking, do not be silent. For I am with you, and no one is going to attack and harm you..."

Paul listened, he called out to God. Prayer is a two way conversation.  

When we least expect it...it will happen. 

God used Rev. Chris to help calm my fears...He spoke to me when I most needed it.
Today is the start.
I am going to...SPEAK up to God, STAND up to fear, and MOVE out of fearful times.

because faith in Christ and prayerful soul will heal all.

January 9, 2013

wordless wednesday

Ok...maybe just a few words. "I'm tired"



January 8, 2013

why I teach.

When most people think of classrooms...this is what they think of:


The students walk in the door, say "Good Morning Ms. Kara", sit quietly while the teacher speaks and teaches them the knowledge of the world; then they all turn in their classwork while they are walking out the door and say "Have a great day Ms. Kara! See you tomorrow." 
Just so you know...most days...this is not how it looks.


In reality...this is what classrooms look like.(and how I feel most days)

BUT, today is different.  Yes, I still had a crazy classroom like the picture above,but something different happened.  In college they always talk about how rewarding teaching is and I really hadn't experienced that feeling until a couple of days ago.

So, it was a couple of days before Christmas break and my kids were crazy. I was ready to get out for break, they were ready to get out for break, so it wasn't a good situation either way.  As 3rd period got started, I asked one of my students to politely sit down and get started on his work.  He proceeded to try to tell me that he wasn't going to with some beautifully threaded language and threw a desk against the wall in my classroom. I called the office and let's just say this student got an early Christmas vacation. 

A few days ago, returning from break,I was anxious to have this student in my classroom.  What was he going to do?  Would he be upset with me?  I didn't know.

This child did something I never expected any student to do...he apologized to me.  Not because he was forced to, but because he wanted to.  He pulled me into the hallway and said, "Ms. Kara, my behavior isn't what it should have been and I am so sorry for my actions. Will you please forgive me?" 

Children today still have hearts...they still care about others.  Just when you think you, as a teacher, haven't touched one in the classroom, you realized you have touched many.  God put me here for a reason...even though it has been for a short amount of time... I have never been so blessed in my life. 

January 7, 2013

you are my constant

Listen.




Ever feel like that?

Most of you know, my move is quickly approaching. I have 8 days...you heard me 8 school days and 12 days until I need to move out of this beautiful town that I have grown to love.  The love of my life is here.  The children I have grown to love, hate, and love again are here...all 82 of them.  Currently, my life is here...in 12 days it won't be...it will be in Raleigh.

Change.  I love it because I know it is going to make my life better...this decision to take a new job in the middle of the year was spurred by God.  After many years of challenging God, I have realized that when He opens doors, He opens them for a reason. Every time I tried to tell Him no...He told me yes.  

Driving home today I was distraught...I had a wonderful day at school...and finally realized I am leaving my children to the unknown. We love our comfort zone and school is my comfort zone. I know how to write a lesson plan, I know how to change classes, I know how to work with children...why am I changing?

Then this song came on.

"Okay, I really don't like change, but I can't stop it..

.I'm moving forward anyway, with a promise.  
You are the anchor for my soul, that's all I need to know."
You are my constant.

God. You are the anchor for my soul... You have provided me with a unique opportunity to become who I am.  You have led me to Raleigh, so today I am moving forward, trusting you with every part of my soul. You are my constant while everything is changing.


{love will hold us together}